Living and working with Anxiety and Depression. A diary of someone battling Mental”ill" Health.

It's been a strange week to say the least. In the past few days and out of nowhere I've found myself a very very small step from descending into that bad place all sufferers fear of returning to. I'm pleased to say that I'm 90% sure that I've won this battle for once.  I'm definitely more positive and in tune with the healthier me. So what happened and why? What did it do to me? How was I able to turn it around? Well to begin the investigation I need to go back to 18th May. The date I delivered my very first talk on Mental Health to a small gathering of people at Heightington village hall.  Although the talk went even better than I'd hoped and the feedback being nothing but positive. It's a fact that from the minute I finished it. Before we'd even packed away ...  I was tearing the experience to pieces in my head.   My irrational persona immediately began to grow in strength and almost totally unchecked destroy the immense feeling of positive affirma...

Hello folks... An as it's happening posting.... Well it's been a month since my last blog. And it's been a good few months of me carefully feeling around in what is still a fairly new world to me... And I really have found myself doing and planning things that I could never have dreamt of a year ago.  I've been very much on the up........ But as has been the case before once again something isn't feeling right. I'm writing this starting piece while parked up on my break. I've not decided whether to publish it part written and add in an almost live approach or save and post when completed as normal.... But this is truly raw stuff as it's happening not even my amazing wife and loved ones are aware..... But this morning I've been almost overwhelmed from time to time by a massive sense of foreboding. As though everything I've achieved is about to blow up in my face. I stopped myself from bursting into tears about an hour ago..... This is what living ...