Living and working with anxiety and depression 15th November 2021 Day 26 The one where family means everything... And I realise I've got a real fight on my hands.

 Today was always going to be pretty special..Any days spent with grand children always are for any Grand parents.


Throughout the day I feel my negative persona trying it's hardest to step in and spoil the day. And yes its presence was self evident on a number of occasions. But what a lovely day we three had. Puddles, stones, leaves, dogs and the beach.


Living almost next to the sea with amazing loving parents together with four inhereted sisters means our grand daughters life is already something other kids can only dream of. And she's already a thoughtful but forceful character. 


We are knackered by late afternoon when mum and dad get home. Especially Faith who has done all of the running around. 

I've slipped in and out of the day's proceedings and feel really guilty for it...


Before evening sets in we adjourn to the Travelodge that we have booked for tonight.

As a treat we enjoy a very relaxing time at the best Italian restaurant we've ever found. 


First and foremost and taking out of the equation my present failing cognitive ability to experience joy and happiness. Today has been enjoyable and wonderful spent with our magical grand daughter. 


We return to our room and actually sleep for more or less the whole night.


Pete


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